Thousand Thoughts
Poem: When the maelstrom of thoughts is impossible to ignore
Sometimes there are so many Thoughts in my head Whirling around in a maelstrom Making it difficult to breathe Caught amidst my thousand thoughts One leads to a surge, a sequence of others And suddenly, an explosion No longer able to let go Forcing itself to the foreground Demanding attention They can upset me, distract me From falling asleep. Even if I know They are not real. Out of control Still, impossible to ignore Enormous effort to stop Heart racing, breath quickening Thought after thought Following consequences Of pointless pictures Painted in my head. They are relentless. Just keep coming Stop it, I say, but they don’t listen. Be still, my head. Get out Destructive power. Leave my mind. Sleep won’t come Thoughts are too strong So I tell myself stories Try to change the outcome Keep my frustration under control It’s all in your head, they say Not real. But do they know How to turn off what’s Going on in their head? Is it bad to think too much? Better to think than just be Even if it means so many thoughts Unanswered questions, theories And streams out of control. I’d rather take my thousand thoughts. And with that thousandth one A calm comes over me. I’m okay They are proof of the effervescence Of my never-resting, ever-exploring, curious mind. Secretly, I’m proud of me.
©Caz.C.Cole